I finally have $500 in my savings account. I know it’s nothing to most people, but I literally cried.

我终于在储蓄账户里存下了 500 美元。对大多数人来说这可能不值一提,但我真的哭了。

Honestly I just needed somewhere to share this because I don’t really have anyone irl who gets how big this is for me.

说真的,我就是想找个地方分享一下,因为现实生活中真的没人懂这对我来说有多重要。

For the last three years I’ve been in that cycle where the second I get paid, it’s gone. Overdraft fees were basically just a monthly subscxtion for me at this point. It felt like I was drowning in slow motion. Every time my car made a weird noise my heart would drop into my stomach.

过去三年,我一直陷在这种循环里——工资刚到手就瞬间清零。透支手续费简直成了我每月的固定订阅服务。那种感觉就像在慢动作中溺水,每次车子发出异响,我的心就直坠谷底。

About 4 months ago I just snapped. I was tired of being scared of my bank app. I started doing the "boring" stuff. I cut out the energy drinks (which was harder than quitting smoking tbh), stopped buying lunch at work, and started throwing literally $10 or $20 a week into a separate account at a different bank so I couldn't see it or touch it easily.

大约四个月前,我终于崩溃了。我受够了每次打开银行 APP 都胆战心惊的日子。开始做那些"无聊"的正经事:戒掉能量饮料(说实话比戒烟还难)、不再购买工作午餐、每周雷打不动往另一家银行的独立账户存 10 或 20 美元——这样既看不见也难动用。

I checked it this morning and it hit $515.

今早查余额时,数字跳到了 515 美元。

I know $500 is like, one grocery trip for some families. But for me, knowing that if my tire blows out tomorrow I don't have to beg someone for money or take out a predatory loan... the relief is actually insane. I feel like I can breathe for the first time in years.

我知道 500 美元可能只够有些家庭采购一次杂货。但对我来说,这意味着明天就算爆胎也不必低声下气借钱或借高利贷...这种解脱感真的难以形容。多年来我第一次感觉能自由呼吸了。

If you’re in the trenches right now and feel like saving $5 is pointless because the hole is too deep, just do it anyway. It adds up faster than you think.

如果你正处于困境,觉得攒 5 美元无济于事,因为债务深不见底,但无论如何请坚持存下去。积少成多的速度比你想象的更快。

Thanks for reading, just wanted to tell someone who understands the struggle.

感谢阅读,只是想找个懂这种艰辛的人倾诉。