你人生的分水岭是什么？

hidarryl
At age 25 one night my brain broke. I had fleeting intrusive thoughts throughout life, but a unique culmination of stress factors that night flipped it like a switch to full on OCD. Waking up the next morning I knew something was terribly wrong. It consumed me. I’m alright now 9 years later, but I’ve always seen it as me entering some v.2.0 era of myself, never to return.

在25岁那一年的一天晚上，我的脑子突然坏了。我这辈子经历过各种侵入性的想法，但是那天晚上各种各样积攒起来的压力让我像开关一样变成了一个强迫症。第二天早上起床的时候，我感觉有什么地方出了很严重的问题。我被吞噬了。九年过去之后，现在我已经完全好了，但是我一直觉得那是我进入人生2.0阶段的时刻，永远也没有回头路了。

effulgentaardvark
I feel this so much. One day I was blissfully happy, the next I was consumed by swirling anxious thoughts that I couldn’t relieve myself of for almost a year. I literally thought about killing myself just to get some relief from my own thoughts. Thankfully I saw a good Doctor and am better now too. OCD is horrible and I hate when people exaggerate having it. They have no idea.

我完全能感同身受。前一天我还开心得跟什么似的，但是到了第二天，我就会被纷繁复杂的焦虑的情绪吞没，让我此后几乎一年都没有办法放松自己。我真的想过自杀来从我的一些想法中解脱。谢天谢地，我见了一个好的一生，现在我也好多了。强迫症真的非常可怕，我很痛恨人们随随便便就说自己有强迫症的样子。他们根本就不懂。

slipstream808
This happened to me!

我也发生过这种事！

But it was a constant state od Deoersinalization/Derealization. One day I was OK and suddenly after a few sleepless nights that was it. Nothing was real anymore.

但那是持续的失去方向、失去现实感的过程。某一天我可能还什么事也没有，但突然在经过了几个失眠的夜晚之后，我就变了。再也没有什么真实了。

Then depression and anxiety set in. Took me a year to find my way back to "reality" lol.

然后抑郁和焦虑就会钻进来。我花了一年的时间才找到回到“现实”的方法哈哈哈

ceruleanscars
Losing my twin the day after our 17th birthday.

在17岁生日之后，失去了我的双胞胎兄弟。

Bavish09_
gosh this is very painful, I'm so sorry. out of all the comments this one takes the cake for me I can't imagine losing my sibling, hope you're doing better.

天哪这真的非常痛苦。我很为你难过。在所有的评论当众，这一条是最让我难过的，我根本无法想象失去自己的兄弟姐妹会是什么样子。我希望你现在已经好一些了。

tacknosaddle
My cousin's husband was an identical twin and had a serious medical condition that ultimately caused his death. I have never seen someone so physically consumed by grief as his brother at the wake and funeral. He had less serious health issues, but he went into a spiral of drinking and not taking his medication and was dead within six months as well. Whenever I run across anything about how close twins can be my mind goes back to his grief as it was literally like a part of him died that day.

我表亲的丈夫有个双胞胎兄弟，他本人得了很严重的疾病，最终去世了。我在葬礼上从没见过像他的兄弟那样被悲伤吞没的人。虽然他的疾病没那么严重，但是他开始酗酒并且不吃药，六个月之后也去世了。每次我遇到人们说双胞胎可以有多像的时候，我就会回忆起他的那种悲伤，真的就好像他的一部分在那天也一起死了一样。

This is a long way of saying that I have a small idea of what you went through and I'm sorry for your loss and pain.

说得有点多，我只想表达我可能可以稍微理解一点你所经历的事情，我为你的损失和痛苦感到难过。

ieatpickleswithmilk
as an identical twin, I wasn't ready to read this comment this early

作为一个双胞胎，我还没准备好这么早读这条评论。

VashaZavist
I'm a twin and I've been suicidal with multiple attempts on my life through the years but I finally stopped when I overdosed and I woke up in the ER with my brother next to me, he lived hours away. I said "you don't have to be here" and he said "how the fuck can I not be here" and it clicked. I've been scared of losing him all my life, protected him in whatever way I could, but I never realized until that day how much it was true for both sides. Depression made me believe me leaving would be better that he would get all the love and money I would have been allotted instead, thinking about if I had succeeded makes me physically ill now, to think I almost left him like that. He's the best thing in my life, always has been.

我就是个双胞胎，我过去几年来尝试过很多次自杀，但是最终让我停下的是，有一次我吃了过量的药，醒来时发现自己在急诊室，身边就是我的兄弟，他住的地方离我有几个小时的车程。我说“你没必要过来的”，然后他说“我他妈怎么可能不过来”我突然就醒悟了。我这辈子都很害怕失去他，我一直在尽自己的所能去保护他，但是直到那一天我才发现这份感情是双向的。抑郁让我相信如果我离开的话对他会更好，他能得到所有的爱，以及我本来可以有的那份钱，现在只要稍微想象一下自己假如自杀成功了，想象一下我几乎就像那样离开他了，我就会感到生理性的不适。他是我人生中最棒的东西，一直如此。

Arzakhan
Me and my twin are 19, and she’s making countless dangerous conditions, driving drunk, driving high, etc etc and I’m terrified of loosing her. Loosing a sibling is one thing, but I don’t know if I could handle loosing a twin

我和我的双胞胎妹妹都19岁，她现在正在做各种各样危险的事情，醉驾，吸毒后开车，等等，我真的很担心失去她。失去兄弟姐妹是一件事，但是我不知道我能不能失去我的双胞胎妹妹。

Smartass_Narrator
My youngest siblings death. nothing has cleaved my life in half like that. The date feels like a scar.

我家的老幺去世了。没什么东西像那件事一样把我的人生一刀两断。那一天就像是一道伤疤。

Freddielexus85
I found my best friend murdered in our driveway. The poor guy was getting home from work and was brutally and repeatedly stabbed as he was getting out of his car.

我发现自己最好的朋友在我们家的车道上被杀害了。可怜的家伙刚下班回家，下车的时候被人残忍地捅了很多刀。

He was one of the best people I have ever met. I miss him dearly. There's not a day that goes by where I don't think about him. We were supposed to be old men together...

他是我这辈子遇到过的最好的人。我真的很想念他。我没有一天不想他。我们本来是要一起变老的……

Tall-Weird-7200
oh how horrible! Did they catch the murderer?

哦太可怕了！他们抓住凶手了吗、

Freddielexus85
Life without parole for murder, then another 18 years for tampering with evidence.

凶手被判终身监禁，禁止保释，此外还有伪造证据再加18年。

Snaptune
I'm sorry for your loss. My grandmother was murdered in her own home. They found the guy in her stolen car. Due to covid, bureaucracy and delayed court hearings, the guy is walking out and about, free as a bird.

我为你的损失感到难过。我的祖母在自己家里被谋杀了。他们在她被偷走的车里发现了凶手。因为疫情、官僚和被拖延的庭审，那个凶手逍遥法外了。

I hope you have been able to find closure and that time heals your wounds. Stay strong.

我希望你能找到自己的和解，希望时间能治愈你的创伤。坚强。

Additional-Fun7249
I found my best friend murdered. He was hit in the head with a tire iron and pushed into a moving train. We grew up together & it was devastating. I somehow came out a downward spiral & live every day for him now. There's never been a day I don't think of him.

我发现自己最好的朋友被谋杀了。他被撬轮胎的铁棍击中了头部，然后被推到了一辆火车前面。我们是一起长大的，所以这真的很让人难过。我的生活越来越糟，现在每一天我都是在为他活着。我没有一天不去想他。

kspencer3589
My 18 yo sons unexpected death from a brain aneurysm

我18岁的儿子意外死于脑动脉瘤破裂。

Prestigious_Scars
My dad died of the same. I'm so sorry, I know how shocking it is when your loved one who otherwise seemed so healthy and capable is suddenly just gone forever.

我的父亲也死于同样的疾病。很难过。我知道当你最爱的那个人，看起来健健康康的突然就永远离开你，有多么令人震惊。

My father's death is in fact what I came here to mention. My dad was the one person I couldn't imagine life without. I don't believe I'll ever feel like the same person again, at his death my life immediately became a stark before and after. Make sure you tell your loved ones how much they matter to you, you never know when it might be your last chance.

我本来想在这说自己父亲的离世的。我无法想象没有他的生活。我不相信自己能变成原来的自己，在他去世的那一刻，我的人生分成了泾渭分明的两部分。一定要告诉你爱的人，他们对你而言有多么重要，你永远不知道这会不会是你最后的机会。

alreilly23
I am sorry for your loss. I’ve come to realize there are zero words to convey how tragic a loss like this is and how the passing of a child guts you both mentally and physically.

我为你的损失感到痛惜。我发现没有什么词汇能够描述像这样的悲剧，一个孩子的离世会让你在心理和生理上饱受折磨。

As I was opening the post to comment I was thinking that I would say the death of my grandson in November. He was 2 1/2, took a nap and didn’t wake up. We still don’t have answers as to what happened. I feel like we’re in a holding pattern but can guarantee life will never be as it was before.

在我打开这个帖子想要回帖的时候，我本来想说去年11月我孙子去世这件事。他刚两岁半。睡了个觉，就在也没醒过来。我们现在也不知道到底发生了什么。我感觉我们还在等待，但是我可以保证，人生永远也不会和从前一样了。

chemicalnick
My fiancé died. She was only 36. It was the first catastrophic thing that happened in my life and I can’t really seem to bounce back. Broken hearts are no joke

我的未婚妻去世了。她刚36岁。这是我这辈子经历的第一件灾难性的事件，我可能再也没办法回去了。心碎不是什么玩笑。

cripple2493
Waking up quadriplegic at 26 y/o

26岁那年一觉醒来，高位截瘫了。

ValorantShitter
It’s possible to just wake up a quadriplegic one day? Is there a medical reason that it happened or was it just fully random?

一觉醒来发现自己变成高位截瘫是可能的吗？有没有医学上的原因，还是说这是完全的随机事件？

cripple2493
Yes it is - I acquired a nontraumatic spinal cord injury due to transverse myelitis, which is when your immune system attacks your spinal cord. I then went on to be diagnosed with spinal MS.

是可能的。我得了横断性脊髓炎导致的非创伤性脊髓损伤，你的免疫系统对脊髓发起了攻击。然后诊断结果是多发性脊髓硬化。

damndingashrubbery
I had a friend in high school that had that, but it only took out her legs. She was a cheerleader 9th grade, and showed up to 10th in a wheelchair.

我高中有个朋友就得了这个病。但她只是双腿不能动了。9年级的时候她还是个啦啦队员，10年级她就坐轮椅了。

cripple2493
Yeah, it's a mindfuck. Happened to me in 2019, just before lockdowns so I'm meeting loads of ppl now who didn't know because they hadn't seen me, and they are quite confused by the fact that you can get a spinal cord injury without like, an accident.

没错，这真的很让人费解。我是2019年得的。那是在封城之前，所以我现在会遇见很多因为之前没见到我而不知道这回事的人，他们很不明白为什么你没出什么意外也会遭到脊髓创伤。

damndingashrubbery
Yep, my friend said the same of the mindfuck. Woke up one random morning over summer with some lower back pain, within an hour no more walking. It definitely changed her whole mentality, she went from a bubbly ray of sunshine to dark humor over that summer.

没错，我朋友也是这么形容的。夏天早上起来腰有点疼，一个小时之内就不能走路了。这显然改变了她的整个性格，她曾经是个阳光灿烂的少女，一个夏天过去就变成黑色幽默了。

NixyPix
My first date with my husband. After that, it was like someone turned up the saturation on the world. Everything is brighter, clearer and more vibrant with him by my side.

我第一次和老公约会。在那之后，就好像有人把我世界的饱和度都调高了一样。有他在我身边，一切都变得更加明亮，更加清澈，更加生机勃勃。

Long-Celebration-583
My dad dropped me off with my grandma when I was 4 and said he would be back on Saturday. I knew I wouldn’t see him again for a long time tho. I’m 22 now and haven’t seen him since. Lots has happened since then but I remember that day as when I lost the kid in me and the ability to trust

我四岁的时候，父亲丢下我和祖母一个人走了，说周六就回来。虽然当时我就知道很长时间我都不会再见到他。现在我22岁，仍然没再见到他。此后发生了很多事情。但是我仍然记得那一天。那是我内心中的那个孩子带着信任他人的能力一同死去的那一天。

Ancalimei
When my mom, the last person in my life that cared that I exist ed, passed away. I've been alone since then.

在我妈妈，这辈子最后一个在乎我的人，去世的那一天。此后我一直孤单地生活着。

GrouchyBenoit1987
Getting sober

戒酒。

Greedence
2 months sober here. I get it.

我已经戒了两个月了。我理解你。

Also fuck it's hard, I don't miss the drinking I miss the company

还有，这真的很他妈困难。我想的不是酒，我想的是那帮哥们。

FairieButt
If they are interfering with your sobriety they aren’t friends. Yes, that perspective leads to loneliness. And that is a difficult path to walk. But on that difficult path you will find new friends and new life. I’m pulling for you.

如果他们在干预你戒酒的行为的话，那么他们就不是你的哥们。没错，这会导致你的孤独，并且这也是一条很难行走的道路。但是在这条艰苦的道路上，你会找到新的朋友和新的人生。我为你加油。

Walkn2thejawsofhell
Being hit in a high speed head on collision by a drunk driver. She hit us at around 65 mph on a surface street. She went over 5 lanes of traffic in order to take us out.

被一个醉驾的司机高速迎面撞上。她以65英里每小时的速度在街道上撞上了我们。她为了撞上我们，越过了五条车道。

I wasn’t even awake and waking up on the curb and not knowing what the hell was going was terrifying enough. I can even begin to imagine what my wife felt since she was driving.

我甚至没醒过来，我是在马路牙子上醒过来的，不知道发生了什么，这本身就够可怕的了。我甚至可以想象老婆当时是什么感觉，因为开车的是她。

After that everything changed. We have lasting injuries, but I guess on the upside we were able to buy a house with the insurance payout. We would have never been able to buy one without it.

此后一切都变了。我们都留下了残疾，但是我猜好处在于我们可以用保险来买一栋房子了。不然我们不可能买得起。

Best_Needleworker530
When I was in a crash (as the only person permanently hurt, that sucks) I remember waking up after a period of lost consciousness and my first thought was “why is it snowing on a warm September day?”. It wasn’t snow, it was shattered front window. I kept thinking about it for what seemed like forever, I didn’t feel any pain. My partner on the front seat told me sternly to get out and my thought was “I’m only wearing thin trousers and a crop top and he wants me to go out into that snow? I’d rather wait”.

在我出车祸的时候（我是唯一一个留下永久性后遗症的，很糟糕），我记得自己失去了一段意识之后醒过来，第一个想法是“为什么这么暖和的九月份会下雪？”当时没有在下雪，而是风挡玻璃碎了。我一直在想这件事，好像想了很久，我一点痛苦也感觉不到。我男朋友坐在前排，严厉地跟我说赶快下车，我还在想“我穿着薄裤子和露脐的上衣，他还让我下车去走进雪里？我还是等会儿吧。”

Walkn2thejawsofhell
My wife got out and went full on adrenaline mode. Some people saw the accident and stopped. She apparently started directing people to pull me out of the car while unconscious and even started taking photos (she works in insurance).

我老婆冲出去了，然后就进入了肾上腺素全开模式。有人看见事故发生了，就停了下来。她开始指挥人们把失去意识的我从车里拽出来，甚至开始照相（她在保险公司工作）。

We got to the hospital and turns out she had fractured her spine in two places and broke her elbow. Adrenaline is a hell of a drug.

我们去医院之后才发现她的脊椎碎了两处，肘部也骨折了。肾上腺素真的太带劲儿了。

JonnyRottensTeeth
When I was eight, my family's plane crashed on a frozen February Day. I was put into a coma and my mother was killed instantly. I awoke with retrograde amnesia. People tell me I was extremely close to my mother, but I have never in life had any memory of her. I see a picture of her and it's like seeing a stranger. My family pretty much fell apart after that, and my childhood was nightmarish. I'll never know the me before the crash, but I am told he was happy.

我八岁那年，全家人乘坐的飞机在一个寒冷的二月失事了。我陷入了昏迷，我的母亲当场死亡。醒来之后我患上了心因性失忆症。人们都跟我说我和母亲特别亲密，但是我这辈子没有与她相关的任何记忆。我看到她的照片之后，感觉就像是看一个陌生人。我的家庭在此之后分崩离析，而我的童年也糟得像个噩梦。我永远也不会知道坠机之前的那个我是什么样子，但别人都跟我说那个我曾经很开心。

NotMyRealName814
I'm so sorry. I lost my parents to a plane crash in my mid 20s and it was horrible. I can't imagine what that would've been like at 8 yrs old. I hope you have been able to find some measure of peace and healing since then.

我很难过。我在二十多岁的时候因为飞机失事失去了自己的父母，真的很糟糕。我无法想象对一个八岁的孩子来说这意味着什么。我希望在那之后你找到了内心的平和与疗愈。

ZChick4410
I moved to LA. My fiance and I weren't doing well where we were. We were struggling financially, we were in this like... holding pattern. It was like we were just waiting for our lives to start. We couldn't leave since we had no jobs, how would we get an apartment somewhere else? One evening a friend living in LA said he needed a roommate because his roomie was moving out to live with a girlfriend. We talked it over for like ten minutes and decided to go. We had some friends there, we could afford the rent with the roommate, there were job opportunities...anything was better than here. We have our landlord 30 days notice, and a month later we drove.

我搬到洛杉矶了。我和未婚夫当时情况并不好。我们财政上很困难，我们只能苦苦地支撑着。感觉好像我们在等着自己的人生赶紧开始一样。我们不能走，因为没有工作。我们该怎么去别的地方租公寓呢？一天晚上，一个在洛杉矶的朋友跟我说他需要室友，因为自己的室友要搬出去和女朋友一起住了。我们聊了大概十分钟，然后就决定过去。我们在那里也有朋友，我们可以承担合租的租金，那里也有工作的机会……一切都更好。我们提前30天跟房东打了招呼，然后就开车过去了。

The night before we left I got a call about a job I'd applied to a while ago (which I ended up getting). My fiance, now husband, got a job shortly after. We got our own place, and now we have two children, two dogs, and have done well with our savings. I doubt we'll ever be able to buy a house here. And we still have tons of student loans...but I'm happier than I have ever been. We have more money than we've ever had. My parents are nearby now, and we spend time with them, and they love being around their grandchildren.

离开前的那天晚上我接到了自己想要申请的工作打来的电话（后来我真的得到了这份工作）。我的未婚夫，现在是我的丈夫，此后也很快找到了工作。我们有了自己住的地方，现在有了两个孩子，两只狗，并且有一些存款。我不知道我们能不能在这里买一栋房子。并且我们还欠着很多学生贷款……但是我仍然比以前要更加幸福。我们现在有很多很多的钱。我的父母也住在附近，我们会花一些时间陪伴他们，他们也很喜欢陪着自己的孙辈。

Everything before was just waiting with nothing happening. And afterwards, everything just flowed into this wonderful life we're building. I hope we'll have many more years of joy.

在那之前只是漫长的等待，什么都没发生。但是在那之后，一切都变化成为现在我们正在建设的这个美好的生活。我希望我们还能享受很多年的快乐。

jacki2513
When my 31 year old husband passed rather suddenly (2 months from fine to gone).

在我31岁的丈夫突然去世的时候（从没事到去世只花了两个月）。

When he left it was like an out of body experience that still hasnt quite shaken off.

他离开的那一刻就像是灵魂脱壳一样，我现在也没有完全摆脱。

I held him and when they made me get up and sign papers and packed me in a car and drove me home - its like my soul left my body and i could see what was really happening. Everyone in the world was hunched over board games of "Life". Everyone was following the rules, had people they loved they were playing with, had reasons to keep going. And i was just now seeing it was a game, id lost my reason to play, and i didnt want to do it anymore.

我一直抱着他，他们让我站起来签字、把我带到车里开车带我回家的时候，就好像我的灵魂离开了身体，我能看见发生的一切。世界上的所有人都在兴高采烈地游玩“人生”这个游戏。所有人都在遵守着规则，都有他们所爱的人陪他们一起玩，都有继续玩下去的理由。而我已经发现这是一个游戏了，我失去了玩下去的理由，我也再也不想玩下去了。

munchkinmouse
When I had a stomach and now not having one at all. (Yes, I am talking about the ACTUAL organ)

我以前有个胃，但现在没有了。（对，我说的是那个人体器官）

TheCanadianRedHood
How does that work? Also how did you lose it if you’re able to answer

这也行吗？可以讲一讲你是怎么失去自己的胃的吗？

munchkinmouse
Stomach cancer, man. Had to have a total gastrectomy. Believe it or not, you can indeed live without a stomach!

胃癌，兄弟。做了个胃部全切除术。信不信由你，没有胃你照样可以活！

Digital_Wampum
Jesus f'ing Christ! Stomach cancer is like... One of the most aggressive is it not? So I'm told? Good buddy of mine lost his tattoo artist from it...

我了个大草！胃癌好像是……最恶性的一种癌对吧？我记得是这样？我有个好兄弟，给他刺青的艺术家就是这么走的……

Glad to hear you're managing!

很高兴听到你还活着！

munchkinmouse
Yes, it's insane. So many of my family members have died due to this cancer.

没错，确实很疯狂。我有很多的家人都死于这种癌症。

TheCanadianRedHood
Any pros or cons you can talk about? I’m sure lots of cons but there’s gotta be atleast one pro in there yeah?

你能说说优缺点吗？我知道肯定会有很多的缺点，但是肯定至少会有一个优点对不对？

munchkinmouse
Plenty of pros! I'm a cheap date because I eat very small portions. I'm a lightweight drinker because it straight up absorbs into my intestine like, right away. A big pro is that I'm STILL ALIVE. This particular cancer is untreatable and incurable. Starts in the middle layer of the stomach tissue. If it spreads at all, you're toast. It's killed a lot of my family members. It's hereditary. I'm lucky I got the gastrectomy when I did. Pathology said I had 52 tumors in that bad boy

优点可多了！约我出去特别省钱，因为我吃的东西非常少。喝酒也喝得浅尝辄止，因为它会立刻被我的小肠吸收。最大的好处就是我还活着。这种癌症是不可治愈的。从胃组织的中间开始。如果开始扩散，那你就完犊子了。我有很多家人都死于这种疾病，它遗传。我很幸运及时接受了胃部切除，病理学检查的结果是我的胃里有52个肿瘤。